Sunday, May 20, 2018

I belong to the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints

Yesterday, we were able to attend the baptism for a family in our ward.  It was the first time I have witnessed a whole family enter the waters of baptism and begin their journey in the Gospel together. The family of six (including a 14 year old daughter), dressed in white, filled the first pew in the chapel and I couldn't help but think back to my mom's funeral when my whole family also filled the front row in the chapel. A baptism and funeral are two vastly different experiences but there was a such a precious spirit present that I couldn't help but relate the two. The matching white jumpsuits will soon be replaced with white Temple clothing and the family will be sealed for Time and all Eternity in the House of the Lord-- just like mine is. I miss my mom more than I can express-- but at least I can find peace in knowing I will get to see her again and all will be healed.

My heart strings were further pulled when the youth in the ward sang in Sacrament meeting today. Imagine my emotions when twenty of the young women and young men stood to sing the EFY medley-- an arrangement that was performed at my mom's funeral. The beauty of the youth, their voices, the words and tender memories was overwhelming. 

During young womens, we discussed + shared our testimonies and the Spirit of the past 36 hours followed us there. I know I am a daughter of a Heavenly Father who loves me and I love him and I want to be a witness of him at all times, in all things and at all places. There is a plan for each one of us and as painful as that plan may be at times, we are given the tools to rely on our Savior and seek comfort through the Atonement.

My membership in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints is a lifeline and guiding star in my life.  I've constantly been surrounded by men, women and peers who have led by example and continually lead me to the truth of the Gospel. I have a testimony of the divinity that established the church, of the men who have sacrificed to be the mouthpiece of the Lord, of the standards that honor our bodies + minds, of the organizations for children, youth and adults and of the promise that families can be together forever through the blessings of the Temple.

I didn't serve a full-time mission, but Rich thinks I look like a missionary in this picture.  As I thought about his comment, it was made clear to me that my time here in the Boulder ward, serving as young women's president, teaching, loving and preparing the next generation to be who they were meant to be, is a mission of sorts and all I'm striving to do is return with honor.

Friday, May 18, 2018

Mountain three

I've been looking forward to today for weeks-- we were suppose to attend a hot air balloon launch in Erie and were so excited! It was scheduled for 6am, meaning we woke up early, skipped my workout and were out of the house by 5:30am.  When we pulled up to the golf course, people were walking back to their cars because the launch had been cancelled due to incoming thunderstorms. Ugh.  

We made lemonade out of our lemons by dropping Rich off at work super early and the kids + I pulled into Rocky Mountain National Park at 7:30am.  The kids were content in the car, we were ready for the day and had no plans, so why not spend the morning in the mountains?

^^I felt pretty cool bringing the kids to a National Park all by myself! 

 We started on the Alberta Falls trails with Mills Lake being a very ambitious goal but with the kids stopping to examine each stick for teepee building, rock, worm, ant, stream, bridge, drop off and talk to everyone on the trail we didn't get far.

I remember passing a huge rock field + waterfall when we visited last summer but had the darnest time finding it today.  We ended up on Trail Ridge Road, which was beautiful but brought us further from our destination. I eventually turned around and nearly left the park but decided to try one more route and wouldn't you know, it led us right to Alluvial Fan.

The kids instantly took off their socks + shoes (and Macey gladly took off her pants) to throw rocks into the water and climb around. Any future trip to Rocky Mountain National Park or anyone asking for recommendations of what to do there will DEFINITELY include this stop.

^^I never want to forget McKay's bunched up toes

Can it be true that on this impromptu outing there wasn't a single tear? That McKay + Macey were nice to each other, helped each other, and obviously enjoyed our time together? We played games in the car, shared giggles, saw tons of wildlife and sang songs all under the sunshine and beauty of Colorado.

What could be better? 
Besides a hot air balloon launch of course :)

Wednesday, May 16, 2018


^^blowing dandelions + playing at North Boulder park
^^Mt. Sanitas trail 

^^planning out the summer

^^freshly bathed Macey all adorable reading books
^^my $3 necklace from Target that I never want to take off.

^^napping Pikachu, it's the only thing he sleeps in.

Sunday, May 13, 2018

Mother's Day thoughts

The kids have both said a few things lately that have stopped me in my tracks and helped me understand what's most important to them. Isn't that what motherhood is all about? Being able to connect with your child is one of the most beautiful treasures. 

When I tell McKay the plan for the day each morning, there will times when he looks up at me with his gorgeous blue eyes and ask "just us"? Like there is nothing else he rather do than be with just me and Macey. I'm trying to be more conscious of planning things just for the three of us and it's a time I now cherish as well.

As I was putting Macey down for a nap she was getting all snuggled into her blanket and said "night night princess." I didn't realize I said that to her as much as I do until then and the fact that she said it to me shows she really clings on to our little routines-- regardless of how simple they are.

Rich is the bedtime master.  He reads the kids' stories, brushes their teeth and fulfills any demands they may have before they fall asleep. I come in for prayers and occasionally linger but Rich heads the show. One night Macey woke up and when I went to check on her, she said "sing me songs" and it dawned on me that I'm the one that sings the lullabies.  

I'm so grateful for the people in this picture with me.  In every way, they have helped me become the wife + mother + woman I've always dreamt of being. 

I'm also very blessed to have my own angel mother who taught me countless life lessons and skills and to have a mother-in-law who exemplifies each of those elements. 

One final thought I've taken deeply to heart since November is, you don't have to be a mother to show love to a child. My time in young womens has been one of the most incredible times in my life. I worry, pray, talk about, hope and spend time with these youth as I do my own children and a bond is undeniably present. 

The errand of angels is given to women and I can't imagine it being any other way.

Happy Mother's day!

Saturday, May 12, 2018

Mother's week moments

^^I’ll be the first to admit it’s been fun being honored and wished a Happy Mother’s Day all week. It’s a demanding but rewarding job!

never a dull moment hiking with this crew

^^Morning with McKay
Mother's day tea party at preschool

^^BOGO free coupon at Cold Stone

^^sticks + flowers he cut from our bushes outside

Tomorrow I'm looking forward to both kids singing in sacrament (it'll be the nursery kids' inaugural performance), receiving handmade knickknacks from the kids, attending Relief Society while the yw teach primary, three meals + dessert planned for and prepared by Rich and the kids, opening gifts I picked out myself, taking a nap and above all--spending time as a family in awe at how blessed I am to be a mother.